oh god im so upset now and pissed and angry
so today we are(zest )is supposed to have our last netball camp
together as a team before we all seperate
and guess what ?!
i 'm down with a freaking high fever so i cant go
what the freaking hell is wrong with me la
cant even take care of myself
and now i cant even have my last trng with them
damn im so pissed
i feel liek slapping myself and just dying
this last trng means so much to me la
if it was one of the normail trngs it would be okay
but this is the LAST one we are goanna have together1
OH GOD
so while they ar having fun there at kallang
im stuck here pissed with myself and i feel like crying
and yesterday my temperature ,
went up higher than 40 degrees,
the doctor almost wanted to
sent me to kk hospital
but now its much better
and i wanted to go to kallang to see all of them
but the doctor didnt allow
so obviously my mom didnt allow either
god !i so wanna go la !
its not fair man why must things like that always fall on me!
DAMNIT.
its like the last time ill be able to do pair ball with deannie ,
the last time ill be able to do team ball with this team
the last time ill be able to play game with this team
and the last time where we can all bond
and this has to happen
HELL
i cant even express how horrible and pissed i feel
i have been waiting for this saturday for so long
and now im not even there with them
and ytd night i was crying cos i knew taht
i wont be able to go for the trng
yes,its crazy how emotional you get when u have a high fever
oh god
